I guess those Staples "easy button" commercials were ironically trying to warn me as a child, ie "that button's bout fixin to break, son. So you better enjoy it while it lasts!"

It's definitely not the battery. Jumpers didn't work. New fuse for the alternator didn't work either. So it's probably the alt or the starter and either one of those is a shitsgiving holiday.

Thinking it's time to pucker my butthole and try to get a loan for a new whip.

Jul 23, 2023 17:53:23 GMT rad said:

I guess those Staples "easy button" commercials were ironically trying to warn me as a child, ie "that button's bout fixin to break, son. So you better enjoy it while it lasts!"

It's definitely not the battery. Jumpers didn't work. New fuse for the alternator didn't work either. So it's probably the alt or the starter and either one of those is a shitsgiving holiday.

Thinking it's time to pucker my butthole and try to get a loan for a new whip.

If you couldn't jump it, then it's not likely to be an alternator.
What does it do? Does it click or try to turn over?


On the iNCY front I am seriously struggling with my current marathon:
3 week onsite install
1 week trip to China
2 week install
I am here
2 week training and commissioning
2.5 week service trip

All these things are back to back with only Sundays off.
My Dad is my spare parts manager and has just gone on 5 weeks leave.
At the moment I have a 1hr 10 commute each way, 10hrs onsite, then drive back to the office to process spare part orders.

It's character building... If I survive it.

Jul 25, 2023 0:55:04 GMT iNCY said:

Jul 23, 2023 17:53:23 GMT rad said:

I guess those Staples "easy button" commercials were ironically trying to warn me as a child, ie "that button's bout fixin to break, son. So you better enjoy it while it lasts!"

It's definitely not the battery. Jumpers didn't work. New fuse for the alternator didn't work either. So it's probably the alt or the starter and either one of those is a shitsgiving holiday.

Thinking it's time to pucker my butthole and try to get a loan for a new whip.

If you couldn't jump it, then it's not likely to be an alternator.
What does it do? Does it click or try to turn over?


On the iNCY front I am seriously struggling with my current marathon:
3 week onsite install
1 week trip to China
2 week install
I am here
2 week training and commissioning
2.5 week service trip

All these things are back to back with only Sundays off.
My Dad is my spare parts manager and has just gone on 5 weeks leave.
At the moment I have a 1hr 10 commute each way, 10hrs onsite, then drive back to the office to process spare part orders.

It's character building... If I survive it.

That sounds miserable. Have you personally caused a coffee shortage in Austalia?

Jul 25, 2023 16:03:41 GMT Gyro LC said:

Jul 25, 2023 0:55:04 GMT iNCY said:

If you couldn't jump it, then it's not likely to be an alternator.
What does it do? Does it click or try to turn over?


On the iNCY front I am seriously struggling with my current marathon:
3 week onsite install
1 week trip to China
2 week install
I am here
2 week training and commissioning
2.5 week service trip

All these things are back to back with only Sundays off.
My Dad is my spare parts manager and has just gone on 5 weeks leave.
At the moment I have a 1hr 10 commute each way, 10hrs onsite, then drive back to the office to process spare part orders.

It's character building... If I survive it.

That sounds miserable. Have you personally caused a coffee shortage in Austalia?

It's currently 11am and I'm sipping my 6th shot of espresso!

Yesterday:
5:00 alarm goes off
5:15 my third alarm goes off and I get up
5:30 put of the shower and downstairs
5:40 morning routine, journalling l, meditation prayer etc.
6:15am leave home
7:15 pick up engineer
7:30 arrive onsite
18:30 pm drop off engineer
19:40 arrive at office
20:30 finish processing orders
22:50 finish three machinery quotes
23:10 arrive home
23:25 finish fixing insinkerator
23:30 eat dinner
00:00 shower
00:20 two emails and a phone call
00:45 bed

05:00 alarm goes off

According to my fitbit I got 1hr 53 minutes sleep

I’ve been really quiet on here lately because honestly I’m so disappointed with how things have gone since my last update.

I did get the job, and while I was beyond happy about the job it sadly wasn’t working out. Since Dad and I were both at work every night my dog was getting sick and kept vomiting. I’m not sure what caused it, but the stress of us not being home and him being sick really got to me. Also turns out professional industry cleaning products trigger my migraines to maximum level to the point I want to projectile vomit and pass out (I think Bones could sense it and maybe that’s why he was getting sick too).

So I’m sick af while at work, I’m stressed af.
Dad also turned down an eye surgery he is on the wait list for because he didn’t want to leave me alone at work. I was trying to make work better for him, not worse.

Honestly the week was just rough.
Dad asked how I liked the job and I just burst into tears, I thought over time it would get better it just pushed through but I still haven’t fully recovered from how sick I felt.

Thankfully they hired other people at the job, so Dad isn’t alone working ridiculous hours anymore. I also left on my own accord and didn’t get fired or anything so I at least feel better that it was my choice. The boss was also super understanding which was a relief.

Now I’m back to doing the 2 casual jobs again, one I never quit so I was always working there just suddenly had no availability one week. The other knew about it and took me back - also offered me a permanent position but by the sounds of it the higher ups aren’t keen on more permanent staff so it might not happen.

I’m just extremely disappointed in myself, and what to do with life.
Depression has really been kicking my ass this month.

I'm really sorry to hear all of that sandylea. A couple things to try and remember - your health, whether it's physical, mental, emotional, or spiritual is the most important thing. Everything else is secondary. Without good health, everything else in your life becomes more challenging. And second, try not to be so disappointed in yourself. Sounds like there were some factors out of your control.

I am very sorry things didn't work out the way you hoped. Try not to get so down on yourself. Unlike many, at least you tried. And there will be more opportunities that won't make you sick, I'm sure of it.  I think you did the right thing when you realized things weren't going well, so please give yourself a little grace. When I start to beat myself down I think about what I would say to someone else I love, cause I damn sure wouldn't say to them what I say to myself.  *big hugs*

Sounds like your dog has separation anxiety. Very common. Maybe talk to your vet or Google remedies that might help.

sandylea if you were getting physically sick due to chemicals that job def was not good for you to be at. Don't be disappointed, you tried it, but that was clearly not a job you could keep.

Just keep looking and see what you can find while you do casual work.

Jul 26, 2023 1:11:59 GMT iNCY said:

Jul 25, 2023 16:03:41 GMT Gyro LC said:

That sounds miserable. Have you personally caused a coffee shortage in Austalia?

It's currently 11am and I'm sipping my 6th shot of espresso!

According to my fitbit I got 1hr 53 minutes sleep

You really got to find a healthier way to do all this.  This is hellish on your heart.  No point to bust ass so hard to try to retire early, if you do not get to actually retire and enjoy a long life after.

If you keep up like this, at least make sure to keep your LDL cholesterol low and eat a shit ton of fiber.  I assume your blood pressure is sky high when you are caffeine pumping, and you REALLY do not want to stroke or even microstroke.  One day we will be able to clear out plaque from the blood vessels, but it is not here yet.

Jul 30, 2023 21:51:54 GMT c said:

Jul 26, 2023 1:11:59 GMT iNCY said:

It's currently 11am and I'm sipping my 6th shot of espresso!

According to my fitbit I got 1hr 53 minutes sleep

You really got to find a healthier way to do all this.  This is hellish on your heart.  No point to bust ass so hard to try to retire early, if you do not get to actually retire and enjoy a long life after.

If you keep up like this, at least make sure to keep your LDL cholesterol low and eat a shit ton of fiber.  I assume your blood pressure is sky high when you are caffeine pumping, and you REALLY do not want to stroke or even microstroke.  One day we will be able to clear out plaque from the blood vessels, but it is not here yet.

I am systematically working through it all, I just have a hump to get through before I have enough space to solve these issues.

I am less concerned with retiring early now than I am in creating a life I don't wish to retire from.
It's something that was provoked by something I read that is haunting me.

It was about how addiction is a solution not a problem and I need to engineer my environment to be something I am not self-medicating myself to cope with or escape, whether that is diet, unhealthy habits, caffeine addiction etc.

I've been speaking to this social worker lately. I'm not sure they are doing much more than providing acknowledgement and a platform for me. Hardly needing to twist my arm to get me to open up and that whole "it's not really confidential bruh!" fear I've always had has gone out the window LMAO within 5 minutes of speaking to this person. I'm shooting on the process and just giving them full access to Ness and you know what's happening? She's laughing. I'm getting pops. And then I think of things like PW News, promos in front of the class and just when I get green lit from cuties and others I'm "close" to... it feels like I *might* have a personality somewhere in here. She really put over my ability to speak and how if I could just show it to others. Ya know not exactly new information and certainly not something people on PW been preaching forever.

This is bullshit.

Fucking hell was it just me the whole time? What a complete waste just because I fear rejection and leaving my comfort zone. If I didn't get in my own way could I have had... more? I am a child. I really thought I was making an effort recently. Standing up for myself both at "home" and work, learning to cook, efforts to socialize and not just with cute coworkers, confidence in my ability on the job, etc. If only I started doing that like 20 years ago...

First I'd like to say, of course you have a personality! A great, fun one! Glad to know someone else other than us has acknowledged it.

Secondly, we often get in our own way for many of the reasons you stated: fear of rejection, fear of failure, fear of success, leaving our comfort zone, etc. I still self sabotaging myself and every time I ask myself 'WHY?' A lot of this self introspection/realization comes with age. I am definitely not the person I was 20 years ago. All I can say is don't look back. Would have, Should have, could have. Forget it! Doesn't matter. What matters is you start where you are at today and go forward. Trust me regrets will just hold you back and honestly maybe you just weren't ready. Personal growth can be painful, but also rewarding. Good for you for taking this step.

Lastly, I think this belongs more in the positivity thread than the negativity thread and once you start to think so too, is when the real change begins.

[/Dr.Phil]

@ness 's post definitely belongs in the positivity thread. Self growth comes with time and hard work. Looks like you're starting to get some pay off.

Glad therapy is working out Ness, and you met with them. And while you are getting a late start Ness, what matters most is you are starting to get things together. Once things come together we can finally start on getting you one of those cuties.

Aug 1, 2023 17:33:52 GMT @ness said:

Fucking hell was it just me the whole time? What a complete waste just because I fear rejection and leaving my comfort zone. If I didn't get in my own way could I have had... more? I am a child. I really thought I was making an effort recently. Standing up for myself both at "home" and work, learning to cook, efforts to socialize and not just with cute coworkers, confidence in my ability on the job, etc. If only I started doing that like 20 years ago...

As iron maiden said, we are all controlled by our insecurities and anxieties. I'm often second guessing myself, questioning why I said what I said, interpreting people's reactions as "they don't like me" when in fact it has nothing to do with me. That kinda thing. My brain does this a lot and I don't like it. Usually I have the self-confidence to ignore these thoughts and act naturally but it doesn't always work out.

Yeah we get in our own way. It's part of life. It's fantastic you are receiving some more validation that you're a naturally funny guy with an interesting personality. Ride that wave of self-confidence, it will take you far.

Sounds like a real Tony Soprano/Dr Melfi situation brewing here!

Aug 1, 2023 17:33:52 GMT @ness said:

I've been speaking to this social worker lately. I'm not sure they are doing much more than providing acknowledgement and a platform for me. Hardly needing to twist my arm to get me to open up and that whole "it's not really confidential bruh!" fear I've always had has gone out the window LMAO within 5 minutes of speaking to this person. I'm shooting on the process and just giving them full access to Ness and you know what's happening? She's laughing. I'm getting pops. And then I think of things like PW News, promos in front of the class and just when I get green lit from cuties and others I'm "close" to... it feels like I *might* have a personality somewhere in here. She really put over my ability to speak and how if I could just show it to others. Ya know not exactly new information and certainly not something people on PW been preaching forever.

This is bullshit.

Fucking hell was it just me the whole time? What a complete waste just because I fear rejection and leaving my comfort zone. If I didn't get in my own way could I have had... more? I am a child. I really thought I was making an effort recently. Standing up for myself both at "home" and work, learning to cook, efforts to socialize and not just with cute coworkers, confidence in my ability on the job, etc. If only I started doing that like 20 years ago...

Brother, don't measure yourself against what could have been, that will make even the most successful person miserable.

You should be applauded for making changes, live outside your comfort zone a little and what doesn't kill you will only make you stronger.
In a totally non condescending way, I am proud of you mate.

That is very, very good advice. The past is done, you cannot change it, so leave it there. Change the future instead.

And really, in the past you were not ready to make change.  Now you are.  Everyone goes through life in different paths.  While many start to get miserable in their 40's doing the same old stuff day in and day out you should be having the time of your life climbing out of your shell and experiencing new things.

www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-12367743/Kyle-Eade-dead.html?ito=social-facebook&fbclid=IwAR1ckalcHd84g8dcwTu25JFKM0hbd0KqLlnktiqhq6yHeccGVKu1NWR-k3w_aem_AfRB88XFo2VkFrnIcRBook0qrWqrHScXNxYoBWprXxg3OSRokeZfMK7UXI0RhCDspKI&mibextid=Zxz2cZ#8udzwcj6pqb

So Kyle was in attendance for a lot of my matches (he was essentially the green shirt guy of Aus Wrestling) and ended up becoming a friend of mine.

Everyone was kind, respectful and many donated to his gofundme. I see DailyMail share a nice article about his passing on Facebook and people decided to use it to push an anti-vaccine agenda. Disgraceful,
Have some basic decorum.

Pretty sure I got the new COVID. Fucking obnoxious now. Eyes itch, head is pounding, stomach is killing me, and just wiped out. No actually real threatening symptoms, just annoying as all fuck.

Waiting for people to get vaccinated now that COVID is annoying as shit to get, but likely the weakest it has been thus far.

There was a bat above my door last week when I came home. I bravely (lol) swatted it away with a box. It was day and homeboy was just trying to catch some z's, but I couldn't risk it getting inside. My bad c.

Dammit Ness!!! Now we are doomed to annoying itchy eyes yearly.

I'm a bit bummed about the fires on Maui.
Feel so bad for the people who live there.

Maui is about my favourite place in the world, I have been to Lahaina many times, unbelievable scenes of devastation. Really heart breaking for the island.

I don't know if this is negative per se, but certainly strange/unnerving. My mom and I were cleaning branches up our front lawn and our neighbor from across (she is 70) came out and started taking pictures or videoing us on her iPad pretty obviously. She's very nice, but a busy body. It was very unsettling. I don't want to cause drama, but I just about yelled across 'can we help you?', but my mom told me not to cause issues. Mom is afraid the lady is a bit mentally unstable and doesn't want to cause further problems as she's well known in the neighborhood. Apparently, she has an ongoing war with her neighbor beside her and it can get pretty bad. We are all home owners here, so best to play nice until she kicks it?  Like what do you do in this situation? Just leave it alone like my mom said or next time you see her, say 'hey I noticed the other day you were taking pictures of our yard/us. Is there anything in particular you were interested in?'

You ring every religious sect in town and ask for a home visit to talk about God.

Except you give them her address. The earlier in the morning the better.

Using the restroom at the cinemas which has sandpaper for TP, so I’m utilising as much as I can. I’d also been to a funeral earlier in the day so not in a cheery mood.

Guy walks in to other stall then starts commentating loudly me doing my business. “big wipe there” I ignore then “hard wipe” later.

Me “mind your own fucking business”

“JuSt a JoKe MatE”

Me: “Don’t be a cockhead then”

“No one’s being a cockhead”

Who tf comments on someone doing their business in a public toilet?
Was expecting a fight when I walked out but he must waited in there for ages after me as I never saw him walk out (was sitting in the lobby afterwards).

Definitely a cockhead.

Aug 18, 2023 12:20:42 GMT System said:

Using the restroom at the cinemas which has sandpaper for TP, so I’m utilising as much as I can. I’d also been to a funeral earlier in the day so not in a cheery mood.

Guy walks in to other stall then starts commentating loudly me doing my business. “big wipe there” I ignore then “hard wipe” later.

Me “mind your own fucking business”

“JuSt a JoKe MatE”

Me: “Don’t be a cockhead then”

“No one’s being a cockhead”

Who tf comments on someone doing their business in a public toilet?
Was expecting a fight when I walked out but he must waited in there for ages after me as I never saw him walk out (was sitting in the lobby afterwards).

Talking to someone in a stall should be punishable by death.

Aug 18, 2023 15:26:41 GMT Gyro LC said:

Aug 18, 2023 12:20:42 GMT System said:

Using the restroom at the cinemas which has sandpaper for TP, so I’m utilising as much as I can. I’d also been to a funeral earlier in the day so not in a cheery mood.

Guy walks in to other stall then starts commentating loudly me doing my business. “big wipe there” I ignore then “hard wipe” later.

Me “mind your own fucking business”

“JuSt a JoKe MatE”

Me: “Don’t be a cockhead then”

“No one’s being a cockhead”

Who tf comments on someone doing their business in a public toilet?
Was expecting a fight when I walked out but he must waited in there for ages after me as I never saw him walk out (was sitting in the lobby afterwards).

Talking to someone in a stall should be punishable by death.

I hate a talky bathroom mofo too. Too am big time pro death penalty for it.

Aussies have the best insults.