I am fucking heartbroken.

I'm not going to spam this shit anymore with my reactions, but I'm going to say this. DAMN IT!

We never really got along on the boards. He disliked my personality, but that's whatever. When he would come in here and talk about his suicidal thoughts and attempts, it hurt me. I tried to help him with words. I told him to keep fighting. I told him I was proud of him when he'd go through his good, motivated moods. This is just sad.

I'm sorry you had to live through that mental pain kemis. I love you like a brother and I hope you RIP.

Jun 13, 2019 22:00:09 GMT @ness said:

Damn dude. Last I heard he was doing well and had a fiance. Went back to see if I missed anything and seems a month or two he mentioned going to the hospital. Really sucks to read that. Fuck.

I messaged him around that time and he really did seem to have turned a corner with everything.

God fucking dammit.

This hurts my heart.

PW's lost people before, but losing kemis hits me harder than any past ones have.

Fuck.

I'm like in message board shock and real life shock.

Horrible news.

I didn't speak much with Kemis but he was well-liked and popular around here and stories that end like this are always incredibly sad

We were friends on Facebook. He’s been engaged for a while.

Holy shit. I missed this because of work and the Raptors game taking up all my time yesterday.

Fucking hell.

This happened on Saturday!? How did I not see this on Facebook?

Jun 14, 2019 19:01:07 GMT RT said:

This happened on Saturday!? How did I not see this on Facebook?

Been wondering that myself to be honest Bill, Only found out because I was alerted to it by a friend. Otherwise I’m not sure i’d have seen it

Can only assume everyone that made a post about it changed their status settings to stop it being seen by everyone he knew.

Jun 13, 2019 22:19:13 GMT Brezzy said:

Jun 13, 2019 22:00:09 GMT @ness said:

Damn dude. Last I heard he was doing well and had a fiance. Went back to see if I missed anything and seems a month or two he mentioned going to the hospital. Really sucks to read that. Fuck.

I messaged him around that time and he really did seem to have turned a corner with everything.

Seems that's the general feeling when these things happen. From an outside perspective they have everything. I didn't have a relationship with him on the board, but occasionally replied to each other and seemed like we had similar taste in wrestling. Always enjoyed when he'd pop back up with an update or what not. Did Kemis go by another name on PW in the past? I have this weird memory that he had another username before changing it and sticking to Kemis. Strangely been thinking about him all day.

Nice touch of RT to sticky his Chikara thread. Always something I wanted to look into, but never got around to it. I am sure the Fan Fic draft final will be dedicated to his memory. Could even have future installments named after him ala the MYC.

He went by Ocire for a couple of years on PW I believe if that rings any bells

Lovely touch by RT, I read the whole thread earlier.

There is probably no person that I was ever more wrong about than kemis. When I first start talking to him, we absolutely hated each other. It was bad. And then one night 🤯 and he pranked me about a fight they were having when I was mod and from that day on we became pretty good friends. For a while 🤯, KJ, and I were known as the Triad and at some point we made it the Quad when we added kemis to it. Kem knew this already but his Chikara fed was one of my favorite things ever in Fan Fic. He and I talked so much about it online and he got me hooked on the actual fed of Chikara.

This sucks. It really sucks. I hate that I knew this was an issue and didn’t do more for him. We lost a good one guys.

Terrible terrible news. This kind of news always kind of shakes me to the core. I got along really great with him back when my ECW feds were going strong on the old board, he was such a great kid. I remember his big finale for his Chikara fed he posted it shortly after I did November To Remember 2001 and he private messaged me the show to get my opinion of it before he posted it on the forum. Then he just kind of drifted away from me at some point and we stopped interacting. I remember when he was posting about being suicidal I sent him a private message telling him what my family had been through with losing loved ones to suicide hoping maybe it would change his mind. Man I really feel for his family and the people who were close with him right now. When you lose somebody like this it just kind of tears your soul out. When you see crazy people and you wonder how they got that way losing someone like this is a good way to get that way, that guilt knowing that you didn't do anything to save them will just continue to grind you down over the years and it never goes away, it just gets worse as more time goes by.

My deepest condolences to Kemis’ friends and family.

I’ve been posting on PW longer than I’ve known all of my friends,
and would have been reading his posts for at least 10 years now.

Very touching to see all the love and support from everyone on here, he will be greatly missed.

Awful, awful news.

I didn't interact with Kemis a lot, but I enjoyed his posts and his views on the wider-wrestling world. The one thing that always came across was his passion for the industry and while I didn't always agree with his views, I'll admit the few times he went into bat for a wrestler I took pause because he was so strong on his convinctions. I remember reaching out to him about being a sounding board for an idea he had about Shawn Michaels. It was a really interesting story and a part of me was curious on where he was drawing some of his inspirations from because they seemed to be outside the WWE. Never the less, from my interactions with him, I think this board was one of the few outlets he had where he could express himself and take his mind off of his demons. I know I'm far from alone and I'm sure you guys came up with some wonderful stories that the WWE could only dream of putting together and I imagine he got tremendous joy and relief being able to share those stories. From my brief interaction with him, I certainly enjoyed his vision.

I hope his family realises they did all they could for him. When he shared his experience, it was clear it was his family's love that kept him on this earth as long as humanely possible and it was the one shining light that pierced those thick black clouds.

He will be remembered and he will be missed.

I found out when I saw B post about it on Facebook. I had kemis/Peter on there and I am unsure how I missed it. I'm broken hearted for his fiancee and family and for our little family here.

I reached out to him a few times to see how he was doing and vice versa, but no news is good news or so I thought. He made me laugh. I loved his sense of humor.

I think people take online friendships for granted. Some of us have been posting together for years. I often think some of you know me better than my real life friends. I've thought about inviting some of my friends to join over the years, but I'm selfish in that I want to keep this to myself.

This is absolutely awful news. Kemis was really a huge part of this place - and although we never met, it feels like I've known him for well over a decade now. A very gifted writer who was very much a quality over quantity guy. Was good fun to get into an argument with, and had great taste in wrestling that he was able to articulate very well. We will all miss him dearly. Damn.

Hey everyone Fergus who known as System, was my guest on my podcast today and we discuss prowrestling and other stuff too click the link to listen now.

anchor.fm/phillip93/episodes/Fergus-Ferguson-join-to-discuss-prowrestling-and-much-more-e4bvlh

Very sad news about Kemis - feeling for all of you guys who cared about him dearly. Props for all your kind words over the journey when he would post about his struggles, he would have cherished his friendships with you and your encouragements to keep fighting. Let's hope he's in a more peaceful place now.

Jun 17, 2019 2:28:53 GMT pduh said:

Hey everyone Fergus who known as System , was my guest on my podcast today and we discuss prowrestling and other stuff too click the link to listen now.

anchor.fm/phillip93/episodes/Fergus-Ferguson-join-to-discuss-prowrestling-and-much-more-e4bvlh

This was fun guys! pduh I think your show works a lot better when you have a guest to ask questions too. I know this was largely a "getting to know you" type episode, but in the future I reckon it might be worth speaking to your guest about some of the topics beforehand so you don't get awkward sections like talking about DoN which you hadn't watched and Fergus didn't have a lot of opinions on.

Thank you for having me on pduh , apologies if I was a bit scatterbrained i’d not long gotten out of bed 😂

Look forward to hearing other PW members in future 👀

Absolutely shocking news. RIP kemis

Never met him in person as I never attended one of Brezzy's Mania parties, but have very fond memories of him from the old PW days, especially in The Beautiful Game subby.

Crushed

Pduh has offered me multiple times to be a guest on his podcast. I would love to do it but you guys would need subtitles to understand my country ass accent. The system episode has me warming up to doing it though. What would I need to do it? A microphone? Like how does it work?

Jun 20, 2019 13:22:14 GMT shinobimusashi said:

Pduh has offered me multiple times to be a guest on his podcast. I would love to do it but you guys would need subtitles to understand my country ass accent. The system episode has me warming up to doing it though. What would I need to do it? A microphone? Like how does it work?

Need to catch the System episode.

Would definitely listen to the shinobimusashi episode.

pduh, remind me where I can find episodes to download!

Jun 20, 2019 13:22:14 GMT shinobimusashi said:

Pduh has offered me multiple times to be a guest on his podcast. I would love to do it but you guys would need subtitles to understand my country ass accent. The system episode has me warming up to doing it though. What would I need to do it? A microphone? Like how does it work?

You just download the anchor app pduh sends you an invite and it’s like a phone call.

Pretty sure You don’t need a mic, but I just used the cheap one ear piece mic that comes with the PS4 and plugged it into my phone so it was hands free.

I think pduh offered me a spot once and then I never heard again from him. I see how it is!

pduh, never offered me a spot.

I'm having flashbacks to Ozone Radio and Brezzy being on there.

I think others were too but I can't remember.

Never got to be on Ozone but think I did 2 episodes on the Nerdery side-piece the Spot Show. Also was part of two podcasts with the former PW poster djm. They were fun so I'll admit when pduh propositioned me I was a little excited.

Kinda like when pi was liking all my posts on the new board when I didn't recall us having much interaction before. So I thought we were bonding but turns out he just liked everything so it was kinda deflating.

Jun 20, 2019 16:51:25 GMT @ness said:

Never got to be on Ozone but think I did 2 episodes on the Nerdery side-piece the Spot Show. Also was part of two podcasts with the former PW poster djm. They were fun so I'll admit when pduh propositioned me I was a little excited.

Kinda like when pi was liking all my posts on the new board when I didn't recall us having much interaction before. So I thought we were bonding but turns out he just liked everything so it was kinda deflating.

lmao.

If we're talking about that, I never knew you were so funny until the new board. I just thought it was weird you liked writing Super Smash Fan Fic.

Jun 20, 2019 16:51:25 GMT @ness said:

Never got to be on Ozone but think I did 2 episodes on the Nerdery side-piece the Spot Show. Also was part of two podcasts with the former PW poster djm. They were fun so I'll admit when pduh propositioned me I was a little excited.

Kinda like when pi was liking all my posts on the new board when I didn't recall us having much interaction before. So I thought we were bonding but turns out he just liked everything so it was kinda deflating.

Former?

I thought djm joined us here?

Was that a Mandala Effect thing?

I didn't know that he joined. He's not part of the remaining active members so I'm sticking with former!